D A R W E E N S H A H: Hari Raya Aidil Fitri 2010 Wit My Beloved Family and Friends, overdued

mummy and papa....love u so muchhhhhhh!!!!

aku yang syok sendiri...

Assalaamu'alaikum everyone. It's been a long time since I updated my blog. I feel bad somehow.

Anyway, I know it's kind of late, but still, 'Eid Mubarak to all of you, and I apologise for all the mistakes and wrongdoings I've done to any of you, whether I realize it or not. Truly am sorry. Actually we should ask for forgiveness not just during 'eid, because it's not like we're guaranteed to live till the next 'eid right? mm..just my two cents.

This year, although albeit quieter than previous years, my 'eid has been quite the unique experience.

A quote by someone I forgot who,

"when some steps into a river, takes his foot out, and places his foot back into the river, it is not the same river he initially set his foot into" something like that. I don't know how it's related but I'm sure you understand.

I think I've been changing every year since my mid-teen days. Every year I'm different, since I was in form 1 I think. Annual changes. Well, compared to last year, I'm kinder to my brother's now. heh. And we get along better. I'm closer to my family now compared to last2 year..though, CLOSER doesn't necessarily mean CLOSE. Depends on how you define it. (someone's snickering while reading this, I know.blergh)

Alhamdulillah, Praise be to The Almighty Creator of the universe and all its contents, I have improved in more ways than one, compared to the previous year. Although, quantity doesn't necessarily symbolize quality, but there's something atleast(see that's our problem, we are easily contented with 'atleast'.gotta change this. *takes note* ).

In this one year, there were a few major events in my life that more or less made me more matured, in a way, regarding certain issues. My path feelsclearer, and by Allah I really hope it's clearer, I hope I'm not hallucinating.

Well, one thing's for sure, being here in UNS exposed me to another important element that I must have in life, religion. And also marriage. UNS has invaded my mind and implanted several elements of marriage. Hahaha. Some of you may be snickering right now, but your faces will turn into rotten tomatoes when I marry your sister. lol just kidding. nonsense.

ANYWAY...

Well, yes, "nothing is permanent, but change" . We keep changing , one way or another, and hopefully for the better. The earlier half of 2010 sure did some things to me. Now the second half is also doing stuff to me. I'm always being done stuff on! (grammar check please). You are changing too. Okay I seem to be repeating my point.

As usual, if you refer to my posts during early "perantauan" life, it'll be basically the same thing, new people, friends, lecturers bla bla bla. Same here. But the more distinctive features of UNS SOLO is the environment, setting, food, and activities. Shah Alam was basically the epitome of freedom. SOLO is somewhat in between.

I started learning Futsal here in SOLO. Hopefully I'll be a fine Futsal Player kalu x pancit la by the time I finish my degree. InsyaAllah. University life really requires one to be independent and able to self motivate to do things. If I were to follow EVERY SINGLE ONE of my friends' paces, I'll be stuck doing nothing significant. Kejap ikut dia, kejap ikut dia, lama2 stress, masalah problem.duduk rumah tunggu bini masak. oops salah topic.heh

So yeah. I'm roughly on gear TWO almost gear THREE. Not on the preferred pace yet. =/

I didn't study at all though during the holidays, if that counts as an achievement(obviously it doesn't).

Well, developing the self should be our aim. As long as we keep developing ourselves positively, insyaAllah, we can make a change, even if it's just the people around us. We have to try right? Haha..old man nagging. People nowadays want to be successful and rich and have a happy family. Developing the self? Meh. If it happens it happens...right?

Oh well. An 'old man' like me..who'd listen to me eh? ahahhaha.

My quranic recitation teacher told my mom, " He just thinks he's old and mature. Still a kid lah that boy"

Hahaha. I wonder if it's true..hmm.. =P

I mentioned something unique about my 'Eid this year right? Well, it's about me visiting my Grandma house in Banting as usual every year.but diz my second year celebrating my 'Eid in Malaysia, after about 3 years fasting and "Raya" at oversea.what great moment dat I can spent my entire Syawal month with my family, such a memoriable moment. It was a very fruitful visit, beneficial, and also an eye opener in some other sense.

I spent quite some time there, eating, talking, eating somemore, talking , And then more eating. Haha.

In terms of new environment and place, alhamdulillah I can adapt quite fast compared to some others. When I got back here, lately hahaha, on tuesday, it felt sort of like home. A second home perhaps. I just went on with my life as usual. And then it struck me...what am I doing here? I'm just letting my days pass me by, I feel comfortable, yet unproductive. Maybe this is what happens when you're in the comfort zone.

Then I remembered. I'm in a university. I should be studying! And do my best! And develop my self to become a better person, so that I can contribute back to the ummah and society one day insyaAllah.

So far I haven't been doing my best. It does get to me sometimes, but usually only for a short period of time. Then I get over it. Too fast perhaps.

The point is, I'm not that focused yet. Banyak main lagi ni. As a reminder to myself and others, YOU ARE HERE TO STUDY! NUNTUT ILMU TU HABIS2! Jangan buang masa. hmph.

So anyway, I'm here, away from my family.
It's late. I should sleep.

Enjoy the remnants of the holiday mood. We're going to have to take it up a notch ASAP. Let's roll.

B-)

p/s: if you need translations on any of the words here,please do ask.I'll try and help

~salaam~
~ciao~